Its been a real real real real long time since I’ve written anything online about thoughts and what not…. It feels weird because I usually use the internet for inspiration now a days but I just feel that this topic of following through definitely is too relevant to so many peers around me literally and figuratively. I just cant stand it when people put up such a facade that they will be making changes for the better…. changes for their own well being….. or just changes to make plans for the future and acting more responsible for their own actions.
It all sounds great in the beginning and they really really sell me on the idea that “hey , they must be really growing in life and Im proud of them”. I finally have completed my mission to make everyone in my circle aspire for the greater good!
But ALL OF A SUDDEN. The idea fades away….responsibility is thrown onto another reason and priorities are switch back to the original ones which dont benefit anyone.
I know it isnt my responsibility to have everyone motivating them selves and I shouldnt be held accountable for my friends future, but it just sucks to see people start stop and restart this vicious circle of picking up the broken pieces of them selves , putting the pieces back together , and at the very last piece , throw it all on the ground just to do it all over again.
I’ve always imagined success a big giant mountain…. first the incline is really small and grassy , all your friends are around you chatting and what not. you guys stop for picnics and playing around in the grass. then finally you realize you have to get going and keep moving forward where theres less grass and theres possibly just tons of dirt and small little rocks where its really hard and difficult to get a grip and move even higher up on the mountain…. Some of us get past that alone , and some lend a hand to those stuck in the gravel…. and some just give up after that.
Then….FINALLY the last obstacle looks as if you finally got to the top, but its just a fraction of the last incline which first goes down hill for a second to make you feel as if you hit rock bottom. Again …. there a few that leave rock bottom alone , few that are helped passed rock bottom , and those who just give up then.
Thats it though . RIGHT THERE. Ive always given help when I can to my friends , just because I’ve been privileged to be given a hand or two in lifes situations. but when I put out my hand to help you out of the gravel . YOU BETTER FUCKING PULL YOUR SELF OUT WHILE HOLDING MY HAND.
Im not going to hold out my hand for you for the rest of my life.